Update on Muah

Wow, it has been almost a month since the last time I wrote a Blog. Guess I have been a really busy bee!

So this month has been one with surprises...some good and some bad.

1st I know this is going to make some of you a little sad but… I took out my nipple piercings on 12-12-09. After I changed the bar bells and put in the rings it went downhill for my right nipple. I found out the piercer pierced me way too deep and behind my nipple. It was hurting and kept bleeding (Not a lot just a little). I was always in pain and I got very sick and tired of it so I made the decision to take them out. My boyfriend was sad but he understood. Maybe in another year I will get them pierced again (And of course go to a different piercer).

2nd I am so excited Christmas is coming. Not for the presents, not even to buy any gifts for anyone. But to spend Christmas with my loving boyfriend. I miss him so much. I am leaving Christmas Eve and will return Sunday. I love getting away to Chicago to be with him. I need time away from my family!

I realized this year I could care less about the gifts. Don’t care who spending money on whom. Yes, it’s nice but I’m over it. I guess it’s me becoming an adult. It’s for the kids. I want them to have a good time.

3rd So what happened to the financially stable Kristen that loves to save? What happened to the Kristen that had $2000 in her savings account and knew where her money was going? I have been spending so much its crazy. Some were car repairs and a lot was shopping, shopping and more shopping! My savings is now gone and I’m again starting from scratch. Thank God I don’t have any credit cards or any HUGE bills and can’t wait for that tax return coming up! Hope it’s good! So more saving and less spending!!!

4th So now that I have decided I need to calm down and save more, I do want to do something for myself once or twice a month just to spoil me for whatever reason … because I can! So I started getting my nails done and I freakin love it! My nails are freakin gorgeous and I can’t believe I went so long without having them done! I have had the French mani and right now I have pink and white….sooo pretty! I’m going to start posting pics soon!

I also started back into Scrapbooking. This summer I got into it but was only concerned with doing My Wedding. Well I defiantly stepped out of that phase and now want to do pics of my friends, family and of course me and my man! I am defiantly going to post pic of my finished pages and I hope you guys go easy on my cause I am a 1st timer! J

5th I was so saddened to hear about Brittany Murphy’s death. So tragic and I am learning that she may have even died of natural causes (Now I hear it may be because of her eating disorder). How natural is death at the age of 32 but if it’s your time to go Home it’s your time. My pray’s go out to her family. She was such a beautiful person an actress.

To all my new friends of my Blog, I love to stay up to date with everyone than just here on Blogger, so please follow me at http://twitter.com/LuvlyKristen. Follow me and I will follow you!

It's Too Deep

Its been 2 and a half months since I have had my nipples peirced. I went yesterday to get new jewerly. I really wanted rings. I went back to the same place I got them peirced and the same person put them in. He said my nipples were healing great.

This morning my right nipple was in a little pain. I thought it was probably because of the new ring and just felt that maybe the ring was making it painful. So I went to another place and starting checking out new rings. The woman piercer there, Lisa, checked out my nipple and she said it was pierced too deep. Its not through my nipple but behind it. Oh great. She said my body was rejecting the ring. She said the way to fix it is to use titanium rings. Give it another 2 months in and it should be fine and should heal the right way. She said after the 2 months and I want to go with something cheaper then I can at that point (The titanium rings were $50 for both) and if it was still being rejected I would have to take out the ring completly and let it heal and re-pierce it. Ouch.

So I got my new ones in now and I hope everything goes right because I love my rings and really dont want to have to go through that pain again. :(

I was a little but angry that the damn guy that pierced it acted like he didnt know anything was wrong and said the looked fine but right when Lisa looked at it she know what was wrong!

Just hope the new rings helps...

Un-Welcome Guest

Yesterday, my friend Carilyn and I went to Emagine theature to go see New Moon. It was amazing like I knew it would be. I love the theature we went to. It had an open bar and of course I got my Long Island (Thats my go-to drink now-a-days) and it was sooo strong and good! Yum!

After the moves we went over to Hooters to eat. I never ate there before but heard the food was good. Which it wasn't. I had a fish sandwhich and fries...fish was hard and the fries was under cooked. Never will go to again...

While we were there a mutual "internet" friend we talk to sent Carilyn a message asking her if he could join us (Im assuming he readd her tweet in knowing where we were. He said he works across the street and was so close so he stopped by). I met this guy on Yahoo Messenger...maybe in a chat room. I have talked to him on there for yeeeeears. But we never met. I have this thing that I keep internet friends...internet friends and real life friends....real life friends. How him and Carilyn met on the internet...niether her nor I really know the answer to that question. I have a HUUUUGE hunch: Me and him were talking over the chat one day about a party my friend Carilyn was going to...it was called the Black Party a lot of people here go to. He was going as well. He claimed maybe he knew her...I said I highly doubt it. Next thing I knew, he was following her on twitter...all of a sudden he's Facebook friends with her. I became a little bit angry cause I believed after he and I had that conversation that he took it upon himself to go to my Twitter (He & I are following each other) look for her, follow her and then look for her on Facebook. She doesnt know him. She didnt think anything of it because their mutal friend on Facebook is another guy she knows so she just think he added her because of him. Why I dont think so? Because this guy is a lame...while we messaged each other he constantly asked for pics of me, relationships, do I got a man, my friends I could hook him up with. Its like he was basically being a little desperate and my gurl is starting to feel the same way cause she now getting the same 21 questions. No, I dont think he is crazy...someone just want hold hundreds of conversations with you for more than 5yrs and never try and do something (As in asking to meet constantly)...just think he wants a little more female attention.

Back to the story, so once Carilyn told he could come (Which she really didnt, but she was being nice) he shows up 10min later like he was outside waiting for her response. All of a sudden he there standing saying hi...ummm ok. The conversation was ok. But for some reason it was just a little bit awkward. You could tell he was tryin to talk to my gurl and she def wasnt interested. lol I was getting a little drunk because I had another 2 Long Islands :). I asked him why he wasnt drinking. He said he had to get home and clean his apartment! I looked at my phone and it was around 8pm! I was like ummm ok. That made me think he was more of a lame that I thought! I then told him I would buy him a shot...just 1 shot. He said he used to drink all the time but doesnt anymore like that. Every now and then. Ok ok ok. So he didnt take it so I let it go. Our food came...he claimed his food was cold to get more food. Carilyn thought he was being cheap and wanted to get more food. lol

After eating, we went over to Lucky's. Its a fun place with lots of games and arcades...and a bar! We bought a card with money to play. We just paid $5. Carilyn thought a real gentleman would have padi for me and her to pay. I understood where she was coming from but it wasnt a date or anything...but I understood. We played some games. We then went to the bar. Carilyn got a drink. I just got water because I had to sober up to drive back home (Dont drink and drive!). All of a freakin sudden...he WANTS A DRINK! Im like I offered you that in the restaraunt and know he wants it! But I am a woman of my word...but he didnt want a shot. He wants a drink. I asked him what kind. For a person that used to drink allll the time, he had no clue. Dont remember what his favorite drink was or nothing...so you know what he got...Rum & Coke. I just started crackin up. I told him to get a man drink. lol He laughed and he still wanted it so I said fine. Carilyn had a small amount of wine left and he asked for it. I guess to front he could down it or something? Yeah...big man!

I can read people so well sometimes. I dont understand why he had to lie and say he used to drink all the time. With me, you dont have to lie to kick it. I have at least 1 friend that doesnt drink. I dont try and persuade her to. Im fine with it. Life goes on. lol He obviously didnt know what he wanted cause he didnt know what kind of drinks are out there...so he got the easiest one he could think of. And probably the lightest...just a baby drink...or maybe Im just an alchi! lol

So we are finally leaving and Carilyn and I are going to my car and he to his. On the way to my car, he claims he will walk us to my car. Im like ok. As we are walking, we dont even get to the parking lot...we are about to cross the street to get to the cars and he says "Ok see you guys later". I say "I thought you were going to walk us to my car". He said "ITS TOO COLD!" Are you serious? YOU volunteered to walk us. We didnt ask. And now all of a sudden its too cold? So we said fine. Bye. And we started walking (I was lauging...in disgust). He then says ok he will walk us but can I give him a ride to his car. I just looked at him...then looked away thinkin "Is this brother fo real?" By the time we got to my car, he says he is pretty near by and says he will walk. I give him a hand slap and say holla!

So it was a fun night....

Life After Death

Today was the funeral of my cousin's wife. Funeral's, of course, are sad. But, this was thee most saddest funeral I have EVER been to. There was not a dry eye in the chruch.

After her sudden death I started thinking about death myself. What happens after? Where do we go? Do we know we are dead? Can we see earth? What does it feel like to die?

I am a Christian. I believe in Jesus Christ. I know without Him there is nothing. I know Heaven is a beautiful place...peaceful, no hurt, no pain, no tears. But I am scared for not knowing when my time is up. How will I die? Like is so short. It's precious. Tomorrow is never promised. God never makes a mistake. He took my cousin for a reason. It was her time.

As a Christian, we just have to follow God as closely as possible. Follow his word. I have always been close to God but her death has made me even closer. Made me realize we never know when its time. I need to go to church more. Pay my tithes and read my Bible. I can't wait to walk through the gates of Heaven and when I meet God, I want Him to tell me I was a faithful servant and I have done good.

For those that don't believe or don't know about Him, please find the way. It only takes that 1st step foward...you have to want to believe.

Trust me, its amazing when you do.

Stay blessed everyone!

Trying To Help...

I have said in previous Blogs I don't have many close friends. And the close friends I have I try to best to keep them that way and do everything I can for them.

One of my friends have a mutual associate. This associate has done crap to both myself and her. I told the associate how we are not friends and the reason why. We will never hang out. But if she does talk to me (On Yahoo) I will answer but it doesn't go farther than that. I refuse to let people think we are cool as hell we when are not.

A couple months ago this associate camr to my gurl's home...unexpected...not calling...just showing up. Of course, she didn't answer the door. Just ignored it. My friend doesn't like coming and telling people they are not cool. Which is a little weird because she is pretty blunt with everyone else...but not to people that really need to hear it.

Today, I was speaking with this person online and she mentioned going to her house and her not answering the door. So, I just let her know. I basically told her that my girl doesn't consider her to be a friend and they aint cool like that and never will be. She then got very defensive and asked why my friend sent her a friend request on Facebook. I said I didn't know and all I could tell her was what my girl told me. She then got angry and wrote my gurl a message on Facebook. I was thinking "Oh great!" I was so mad at myself for putting myself as the monkey in the middle when I should have just kept my mouth shut...so I sent a text to my friend to give her a heads up of what just happened and she was going to get a message from her.

My friend then texted me back very irritated and that this was childish and she doesnt care and she is over the whole situation and I should have never said anything.

I felt horrible. Why did I say anything?

I then check my Twitter updates. My friend is updating her status with messages of her friend circle is getting smaller and smaller and she is okay with that. And that she is tired of fake people. Is she talking about me? This little thing I did...trying to help...and now she is calling me fake? Is it that serious? I never even asked. I didn't want to know the answer.

The next day I asked her a question about something different and before she answered the question she asked if I was going to say sorry regarding what I did or just ignore the whole situation.

I then apologized and said I was wrong. I then said if she was okay with having people come to her house unexpected and not say anything to them about them not being cool like that...fine. Its your business.

Was I that wrong? Me and my friend have never got into any kind of fight in the 11yrs we have known each other and to call me fake...wow! Hopefully she was speaking of someone else....

Next time I will know better...

Life Gone Too Soon

Monday morning, November 16th, 2009

My sister sent me a text, "Did you hear the news?"

I then said no.

She texted back, "Rebecca died this morning."

My heart skipped a beat. I couldn't believe it. Rebecca was my cousin...through marriage...she was my cousin's wife. She was a great person. Very nice. They had 4 great children.

It was a very sudden death. She was pregnant with twins and suddenly got bronchitis. She was coughing really hard and got a blood clot. She then passed out. Her husband (My cousin) tried to save her but she died in her arms while waiting for the ambulance.

My cousin just spent 2yrs in jail for gun possession and just got out a couple months ago. He was so happy to be back with his family. And now this tragedy. It's nothing but sadness right now.

Please pray for my family that we get through this.

She was 29yrs old.

R.I.P. Rebecca Denise Smith

Wrong Vs. Petty

Last Wednesday was not a good day for me at work.

Back in September, when I got my nipples pierced, I told a few co-workers. They, of course, were very shocked. One of my co-workers thought it would be funny to tell another co-worker whom is a man about them just to see what he will say...as a joke. So, I agreed. I IM'd him on the Yahoo Messenger and told him about it. Of course, he was shocked as well. The bad part of it is, I got into the conversation a little bit too deep. I got a little explicit. I basically just asked if he wanted to suck on them (Oopps) and he never really answered me (Thank God). I "lol" and changed the conversation and then it ended. I never asked for him to meet me anyway. I never asked for his number. I never went beyond that. It was COMPLETLY a joke and I thought he knew of this. I never spoke like that to him before and I thought by myself being so foward with it, he would know it was a joke as well.

Unfortunatly, he didn't. I saw him after work a few days later. I said hi and asked how he was. He then pulled out his phone and asked me for my number! I was shocked. All I did was smiled, said "huh" and acted like I didn't know what what he was talking bout. He asked me again and I said the same thing. He then became angry and said "Oh, you going to act like that?" turned and walked away.

I, of course, understood that he did take it the wrong way and thought I was coming on to him. Yes, I can certainly understand why. You just can't say certain things to certain people without them getting "feelings" for you. Some people you can joke around with and left will still go on normally. I tried to apologize. One time, I even went to his desk to say something to him and he actually gave me the "hand" and said "BYE!" (Yes, he put up his hand! Who still does that? lol). I tried IM'ing him again and he wouldn't answer me back! So I am certainly not about to bow down and break my legs to apoligize to this man and he is acting like a damn child and wont even talk to me. Yes, I dissed you but act like a man and grow up! After awhile, I began to say hi to him and he said hi to me. He acted like everything was fine and there were no hurt feelings.

Last Wednesday, my manager calls me in her office. She gets a call from the manager in Human Resources and she wants to meet with me and my manager about an instant message. At this time, I had no idea what she was talkign bout. That whole situation happened in September so I wasnt even thinking about it anymore. I got to the Human Resources manager's office and we sit down. She then goes on to tell me she is doing an investigation regarding a instant messenger conversation regarding "piercings". She named the person I was talking with and gave me the printed conversation to remind myself of it. My heart began racing! I just couldnt believe it! This man actually went to Human Resources on me! She then began to discuss Sexual Harrassment. She said I wasnt fired and that it wasnt really Sexual Harrassment but misusing work equipment on work time. But, she still wanted me to take a Sexual Harrassment course where it is her talking and let her know when I finish it.

At the end of the meeting, I was so pissed off! I was pissed off at myself for joking around like that. I was embarrassed my manager (Whom was another woman, but it still was embarrasing) had to read the conversation and know I am nasty like that (lol) and most of all, I was PISSED THE FUCK off because his grown ass knew I wasn't trying to harrass him. He was just pissed off cause I didn't give his ass my number and I dissed him! And he is being petty as HELL about the whole damn situation and thought to get back with me he would go to Human Resources!

So what if I DID give him my number? Would he still have gone to HR? I don't think so. I wouldn't even be writing this blog right now if I just gave that man my number and just made his day! He is a pissed off man and wanted revenge and went to try and take someone's job away as a result.

I was wrong ... but he is petty as hell. He needs to grow up. Rejection is a part of life. And now I see why his ass is still fucking single. He got a problem...a real problem.

Calling All BlackBerry Users

I have been wanting a Blackberry for EVER! Now that T-Mobile has these new and great plans and they have it where if you buy a new phone you can spread it out in 20 months to pay for it ... I am going for it! I think thats nice.

So here is my chance. My chance to buy the phone I have been craving forever.

The thing is...the newest Blackberry is supposed to come out soon (The T-Mobile Rep actually said next week) and its the 9700. But, I dont know if I should get it only because its new...therefore its going to have it glitches and stuff wrong with it and I dont have time to keep sending a phone back and forth. So, I could just get the lastest one out right now at T-Mobile, which is the 8900.

So, my fellow BB users, what do you guys think? 8900 or 9700? I hear the 8900 is just as great as well!

P.S. This may be a little bad. But the best thing I am looking foward to is my fantastic Twitter apps, BBM and other instant messenging features and the web that I hear is so great. So I really dont care too much about the acutal talking on the phone part. But with all this updated technology on phones today, I think a lot of people think the way I do. lol

Valued Life Lesson

I hate losing good friends. I hate losing good friends for stupid reasons. Most importantly, I hate losing good friends because of horrible boyfriends.

I had lots of great friends throughout my college career. One in particular was Shanna. We met my sophomore year and had a lot of things in common. We had the same major and had tons of classes together. I went to dinner with her other friends as well as outings and even to church. She was actually my only Christian friend in college that I could talk to about God. You can defiantly say we were pretty close. We even graduated from college together…sat right next to each other and took pictures.

After college we both went back to our home towns. We both grew up in Detroit. She still continues to live there but we still lived 15min apart.

Almost 2 years ago, I started my journey on finally getting my license (Yes, I got it at 24yrs old. I was a late bloomer), in which I did, and then started saving my money to buy my 1st car.

Up to this time, my parents and sisters were taking me to and work and they were not happy about it. I was CONSTANTLY getting yelled at because they were tired of taking me everywhere and always asked me again & again when I was going to get my own car. I had only $1500 and got really desperate because I wanted my family off my back so I started asking around to see if anyone was selling cars. Shanna told me about how her new “older” (31yrs old) boyfriend looks for cars and hooks people up all the time. He fixes them up and sales them. So I started calling him and asked him more about this “business” of his because I was now getting desperate for a car and needed help. Because I knew Shanna for 4yrs and I trusted her…I then trusted him.

That was my biggest mistake.

I told her boyfriend of the car I was looking for and my price range. He tells me he finds these cars at auctions and buys, faxes and sales them. He told me if could find me something but at auctions you will need something to put down so he needed $500. Being that I “trusted” him and he knew what he was doing (I knew been to a car auction in my life so had no clue on what went on at these) so I gave it to him. He then tells me he bought a white car (Forgot the name of it) and the price is $1500 and now the mechanic has it and he is doing whatever he needs to do on it.

He then tells me the mechanic needs more money to continue to fix the car. He wants $600. I then tell him I didn’t feel comfortable giving him this amount of money anymore and I haven’t even seen the car yet. So I made him sign a promissory note basically describing the intentions for the funds he is receiving and if I don’t receive a car within another month, I want all my money back. He signs it.

Unfortunately, I never received my car. I started calling him like a stalker ex-girlfriend to give me my money back…even threatened to sue. Her boyfriend continued to lie, lie and lie more about where the car was, that the car was getting still getting fixed, the mechanic broke his hand on something on the car and he couldn’t work (Yeah, I know). He even lied to Shanna and told her he did give the money back to me and she called me right after and I told her hell no!

Shanna felt really bad about the whole situation. She was the one who gave the Go Ahead to his “business”. She said he never did this to anyone before. She then told me she is in a bad spot of being in the middle and doesn’t know how to deal with it. So after that conversation, I stopped calling. It was obvious who wears the pants in that relationship.

So I sued him. He never showed up because he is a coward (And a lot more that I will not go into detail about) so I won. I then could decide how I would get my money back. Of course I wanted to take it from his checks. But I needed all this information in order to do it. And since I didn’t have the info I had to pay more money to do this and that. It just became a drag and a big burden.

Shanna and I friendship began to deteriorate more and more. We stopped talking. Before we stopped completely she even said she will pay me back with her tax returns. I told her that would be nice but that’s not her job. Her man took my money and continued to lie to her face and said he gave it back to me. If you don’t have honesty & trust in a relationship what do you have?

Oh yeah….she also lost her virginity with that piece of shit of a man and became pregnant the very 1st time. So now she is having a baby with a man that aint worth shit! And probably continues to lie to her. A man that will fuck over one of her best friends and don’t even freakin care.

I really wanted to reconcile the friendship I once had with Shanna. Before I deleted my Facebook page, I sent her a message. I wrote how I missed hanging with her and we should do something soon. Of course, it couldn’t be at her place (They lived together) but just go out and hang. She sent me a message back saying she was pregnant again (WTF, this was a girl that never wanted a man to touch her! She has sex one time and can’t stop having babies now, I guess) and of course I was shocked. I told her congrats and gave her my number and for her to please contact me back.

I haven’t changed my number in a year. She hasn’t called yet.

P.S. I eventually got the number of the mechanic that was working on the car (Don’t remember how) and HE actually did hook me up with a great car. It was a 1990 Buick Lasabre and I still drive this car today. I am now looking for something younger! Lol

Unfortunately, I never did get my money back. I just look at it as a very valued life lesson learned…

Never Trust Anyone