Five Years Til 30

Today is my 25th Birthday. I am very blessed to have made it through another year.

Right now in my life I feel that I have to stay focused on my goals and don't look back. I am focusing on finding a career I am PASSIONATE about. This job I have now is just that...a job. I can't progress any further than where I am...and its not something I went to school for. I know there is a high percentage of individuals whom do not use their degrees, but I do. I worked hard for it and I have a crazy loan I have to pay back because of it...therefore I should use it.

I am focusing on moving closer to my boyfriend. its been so hard not seeing him everyday but I can't wait til we do...CHICAGO HERE I COME!

Another thing I will be focusing more on is my finances. I will be going to see a Financial Advisor soon to discuss my future and how I need and can start saving for that. I really need to stop buying things I want and get more things I need...more soon to come about that.

I still can't believe I am 25! Five more years and I will be 30!!! Wow does time fly...I still can recall fun times from middle school...so maybe I am not THAT OLD.

I WILL LIKE TO TAKE THE TIME OUT TO THANK GOD FOR MY LIFE, HEALTH AND STRENGH AND THAT I WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE A HEALTHY AND GODLY LIFE!

Love TV...But NOT Him

Many people that know me will know that I love watching Reality TV…from The Real World…all the way to Bret Michaels; Rock of Love. It is very entertaining and I love laughing at ignorant people and then having a full-blown discussion about it with my co-workers, friends and family.

I have finally come across a show I can’t stand. It seriously makes me sick to my stomach and just angry…and no I am not talking about New York Goes To Work. I can’t stand to watch Gotti’s Way.

If some of you have never seen the show, its about Irv Gotti as he tried to reclaim his hip-hop throne. He was the head a Murder Inc. Records. But in 2003, he faced indictment for laundering drug money. He now has a new record deal and on the verge of getting back into the music.

But like I was saying, I used to feel sorry for his wife...ex-wife...girlfriend...who ever she is. Now I don't. This man is a great father...I give him that...but if someone comes to me and tells me he is not going to stop cheating and doesn't want to be married anymore because of this...now that's wrong. She needs to leave him. I don't care IF he is paying the mortgage. How bout you stack some money, take your kids and leave? I know its easier said than done, but she has been dealing with his shit for years and have been separated for 7. When is enough...enough?

I was just talking to a friend of mine and was telling her my grief with the show and she told me, "She does need to leave him but he keeps it real. A lot of men will cheat on you and not say anything. He keep it 100 with her and that's why I like it". I was very shocked by her saying that. I won't and will never accept men using women just because "he lets her know about himself fucking around". Does that make it right and a cue for her to stay in a loveless relationship? It's not right. He's a hoe and a bitch. He isn't a real man and maybe one day he will come back to reality and realize his wife was the best thing that ever happened to him.

But she is in the wrong too because she is playing mind games with him. Both of them are playing mind games with each other - and need to admit the marriage is over. Irv wants to have his cake and eat it, too. I don't care how good a father he is- doing their mother dirty is not being a good father to them, even if she rolls over and accepts it. And Deb is cutting off her nose to spite her face. A part of me thinks she stays with him to punish him for the cheating, but she's hurting herself just as much, if not more. But I think in her warped mind, leaving him is letting him off easy. She wants the distinct pleasure of making him miserable.

The Gotti family's dysfunctional relationship adds some drama to us TYV viwers, but it isn't really that fun to watch, especially when Irv and Deb discuss their problems in front of their kids. Gotti's Way is an obvious attempt to restore Gotti's professional and personal reputation. It may appeal to hip-hop fans, the mixed messages it sends about family relationships doesn't make it an overly positive viewing choice.

Back To Reality

Wow, so I haven’t been on here like I have wanted…mainly because this past week I went ON A CRUISE TO THE BAHAMAS! It was FABULOUS! It was my first time on a cruise and my first time on a PLANE! LOVED THE CRUISE…COULD LIVE WITHOUT ANOTHER PLANE RIDE! It was too much turbulence and just way too much for me to handle.

I went to Freeport and Nassau, Bahamas and it was sooo great! It was just great to be away from MI, away from people you know and just have a week to relax and kick back. I have such great pictures and can’t wait to develop them.

So before I left, I joined Bally’s Total Fitness Gym. I am sure many of you have heard about it or have seen the millions of commercials on TV. So, I joined because I love working out. I want to get fit…lose 50-70 pounds in the process and just get healthy!

I go with my gurl, Tiff, every once in awhile cause she has a membership too. She decided she wanted a trainer…I don’t…but decide to go up to a Team Member with her to get more info.

Long story short…we ended up talking to some guy whom cost a lil over $1200...For 16 sessions...which was twice a week for a hr…I asked him why its so high…he said because he is “that good” (And because he is certified and has years of experience). Which, I am SURE HE IS. And I can completely understand...if I went to school for to be a trainer, I would want to get paid out my ass for my services as well. But, I don’t make that kinda money where I can fork out $1200…plus he wanted $475 right then and there for a down payment! And last time I checked, aren't we in a recession? Live a little man.

Unfortunately, I gave the man my phone #. He then started texting me EVERY damn day asking me on what I had decided! WOW! Didn’t know trainers were like that.

So I finally decided I wanted only a consultation. I love working out by myself or with a buddy. I really don't think I need someone breathing down my neck. But I would like a professional to sit down with me, list my goals and tell me how I can achieve those goals by doing what ever exercises for whatever how long. If I don’t see any results from this in a month, I will then seek further professional assistance (ie, get a trainer). I then texted him back so he can let me know if he knows someone that can give me a consultation and you know what happened? He never texted me back!

Just shows how some people could care less about helping people…at the end of the day everyone is in it for them selves!