So Tired...In Need Of A Break...

Hey Bloggers!

Haven't been posting in awhile. I have been working 55hrs a week and have been sooo tired. But I am still here.

It's funny how my friends are always asking me to go out but I decline because of all the hours I put into work and how I need sleep when I am not working and they get pissed! I just don't understand that...maybe cause some of unemployed where they can go out every other night and chill. For some reason, it cant get into their heads some people still have jobs and want to keep them. Maybe I need to stop working and get into the fun...hmmm...maybe not...lol

So, in my last Blog I wrote about myself needing a change and was thinking about getting nipple rings. Well, I thought about it and I decided I really want them and will get them! I decided against the tattoo. I have no idea where I want to get it on my body. The only place will be my shoulder. But, then I thought on my wedding day. I would maybe wear a dress that may show some skin and don't want a tattoo showing in my beautiful pics and don't want to put make-up over it to mess up my dress (Don't know why I am thinking so far ahead but thats just how I am) so I may take a rain check on that unless I think of another place where I would really like it.

I am heading to Chicago to see my boyfriend for the long holiday weekend. I am leaving Sep 4th and when I get there I will be getting the rings so he can hold my hand through the pain! lol

But nothing is new with me. Just working and saving my money. Applying to more jobs in Chicago. My heart and my other half is there so that is the place I need to be.

Can't wait until this next weekend! And I will def let you guys know how it went!

Change Is Good

So I was sitting and watching TV with my girl and all of a sudden I said that I needed a change. Something different...something crazy...something dramatic.

So I decided I will get a nice sew in (I think all my ladies should know what I am referring to) and a tattoo. I dont have one so I thought it would be fun. Something nice and cute like a butterfly or a rose.

The the other day I was at work I remember a few months ago when my boyfriend asked me to get something and I didnt even think to answer cause I knew it wasnt going to happen.

But because I wanted a dramatic change, I said to myself, what the heck...just do it.

So, instead of a sew in...bear with me people...I decided I am going to get my nipples pierced! And no, I am not kidding. Im sure it will be painful but one of my best friends has it and she said the pain is worth it at the end.

Does anyone out there has it done already. My friend told me she knows someone that got it done and that person told her it hurt so bad she couldnt get the other one done. Is it that painful? I know pain is different for different people so...maybe it wont be that bad for me...WE SHALL SEE!

I Am Not Going To Settle

“I am not going to settle”

So what does this sentence REALLY mean? You not going to settle for someone that is ugly? You are not going to settle for dark skin people…people with big ears or bug eyes.

I think these days people are taking these words a little over their heads…

Today at lunch time a few of my co-workers were having a discussion about how its sad how “young women these days” are in relationship where their boyfriends are degrading them, speak to them and use them any kind of way they want. I don’t know if they were speaking of anyone in particular (Reminds me of that situation where my co-worker send me that message on the work messenger, mistakenly, saying how my boyfriend is “intimidating” me…but that story is in a previous blog...go check it out. Called "Messenger Scandal") and I surely didn’t ask. And of course I agreed no one should be in any relationship where there is always negativity flying around.

My co-worker (The one that I seriously think is Bi-Polar) then says how she is not going to settle for any man. And I replied that I wouldn’t settle for someone that disrespects me constantly either. She then said that was not all she is talking about…she was referring to money and allll the glory that comes with it! She said her ex-husband made over $40K and she was used to having that and will not talk to a man with less.

First off, she hasn’t been with her ex-husband in over 5yrs so you think she would have gotten used to that by now.

Second, why is it always about money with people now a day?

And I am not trying to be mean by saying this next thing by any means necessary boys and girls so if you get offended, my bad…but a lot of these people that that I have spoken to that want wealth and gold in their mates…they are not really doing much with their lives thier own damn selves. Yes, they may have a 9 to 5 job, but how much are you making a year, sweetie? Yes, you went to school, but did you graduate? I am not trying to be mean or angry under any circumstances…I know its great to want more for yourself. Always look higher. But why look down on the man next to you when both of you are in the same place financially?

Yes, I know its pretty great. Money can buy you tons of things but what ever happened to just loving someone for who they are?

What if they did make $40,000/yr, but their profession was a cab driver, garbage man, or maintenance worker?

A woman I know told me one time how she was at the gas station and this guy was trying to talk to her. She said he was really cute and defiantly her type. She even gave him her real number. But then as he walked away, he got into a cab and drove away. She then said she wasn’t going to accept any calls from him because of the fact that he was a cab driver. And she knew this was pretty shallow of her but that’s just how she is.

I can understand wanting the best of the best, but just because that man was a cab driver didn't mean he was going to love her any less? He could have loved her more than she ever knew a man could, but she would never know that because she thought he didn’t make a lot of money…and you never know…he could have been living in a mansion with 6 cars surrounding his house and he was just driving a cab as a hobby! lol

My thing is don't set so many limitations that will block you from someone that may be meant for you.

That garbage man could give you the best years of your life!

Time To Get Your Priorities Straight…

We all have been there. Getting drunk every night. Getting all cute and sexy to go out to the clubs. Getting extremely drunk. Making out with guys/girls…your best friends. Puking everywhere. Peeing in bushes. Being loud, rude and obnoxious. Telling everyone you love him or her. Falling down everywhere. Getting kicked out of clubs for drunken fights. Coming back home with someone you don’t know and having wild sex. Having one nights stands. Staying up til 5am. Not remembering what happened the previous night and getting someone to tell you.

I am not afraid to say I have been there. And, no, I am not referring to every single thing I listed…but some. And, yes, it was fun…while it lasted. One day, you have to grow up. You have to get out that drunken rut and actually become an adult and grow up. Now, I know it’s hard, but life is hard too.

I have a friend. We went to college together. We were and still are the best of friends. I have seen her through many boyfriends. Three to be exact. I have also been there through all he cheating…HER cheating on THEM. When we were in college, I didn’t think anything of it because of the fact that we were in college and we were young and she eventually broke it off because she wasn’t ready for commitments. I understood.

She is now in another relationship with a great guy. They have been together for close to 2yrs, maybe a little over.

She has already cheated on him twice.

Most of her infidelities occurred while she was extremely intoxicated. I have never used alcohol as a reason to anything I should not have done. It should never be the reason. The problem she has is that she gets extremely drunk. She is slurring words. She’s flashing people and peeing on the sides of cars (And this was just 2 weeks ago). And the next day she has no clue what happened. To me that is pretty scary. And this has been happening since college. I blacked out 1 time in college and it scared me so bad I never drunk that excessive anymore. I kinda like to know what I am doing when I am out in public.

My theory is: if you know when you drink a lot that you get crazy, horny and don’t know what you are doing. Stop drinking excessively.

We are all getting older. Some people are not really into the club scene anymore (Like myself…yeah I’m the granny that sits home, drinks wine and watches Lifetime and Chick Flicks) and just like to concentrate on work and families they are forming. She is not forming a family anytime so but she works like crazy and in a relationship. Therefore, there is no need to get crazy drunk, have sex with someone and cheat on your boyfriend, not even remember you did it then feel sorry about it. I love you like a sister, but, let’s admit we have a slight problem, fix it and get our priorities straight. You only have one liver, sweetie.

Don't Know What You Got, Until She's Gone...

She is your typical “girly-girl”. Loves to surround herself with positive people. She grew up in a great family. She is very respectful. She doesn’t like violence. She even hates guns. She always liked guys. Guys liked her. She was never a slut. She has a great sense of humor. She loves to laugh. She loves to have a good time. She wants to find love. She wants a commitment. She wants marriage…but she can’t seem to find a good man.

“She” is my best friend.

It really saddens me how there are so many wonderful, faithful and trustworthy women in the world, but where are the men to stand by them? My best friend and I known each other since freshmen year of high school so, of course, we have seen guy’s come and go. I have had 2 boyfriends since then and she hasn’t had one in a very long time. And I can’t seem to figure out why. Is she a totally different person with guys than she is with me? She wants to find love so bad. And I am not talking about good sex for a couple months…I am talking about real, deep, emotional adult loving.

She has had so much hurt in the past. Men have used her, no respect; she gave her all and got nothing back in return. One year for Valentine’s Day she got a room at a very nice hotel and made up the room very nice and romantic…rose petals and all. She worked very hard. The guy she was seeing came into the room and acted like he didn’t even notice. And to be a bigger asshole, he didn’t even bring a gift for her or acted like he cared! It makes me so mad. She is such a good person. And she deserves better.

I began to think maybe it’s the age. When we were 20 & 21, no one was ready to settle down yet and still in the party scene. Now we are both 25. I went and got someone 10yrs older (Who was ready to settle down 5yrs prior lol) and she is still pealing through the bad batches to get to a good one.

Now, she believes she has a good guy. But, unfortunately, he has a girlfriend of 7yrs (And a child with her), and I don’t think he is leaving her anytime soon. He claims they are not the same as they used to be and don’t even have sex anymore. Both he and my friend have gone on dates and he hasn’t even tried to anything sexual. He even told her he wants to spend his birthday with her. Without the girlfriend hiding in the dark, he’s a great guy. We all actually went to the same high as well…

But could this be just another barrier holding her back from the real true man for her? Only time will tell…

I hope and pray she does meet her true love. I hope she finds the man that knocks her off her feet and loves her like no other. Every woman and man deserves it. Everyone deserves to experience unconditional love at least once in a lifetime.

I hope those guys that thought she was nothing, thought she wasn’t worth it their precious time, thought they could find better, wanted only to make their relationship a sexual thing…I hope you realize you really missed out on a something special. A real gem.

Some men just don’t know what they got until she’s gone…

Little Update...

Hello Bloggers! I haven’t written a blog in some time. I feel like its been forever…been really busy working and sleeping.

Today is my 2 & half yr Anniversary with my boyfriend. I guess its not really an anniversary…just the half point. I am probably the most romantic person in the world. I love celebrating anything I can. I was actually really excited we have made it this far and of course I wanted my boyfriend to be as well, but to my dismay, he wasn’t at all. He didn’t care…at all. He said that it didn’t really matter to him and what does matter is the actual date we got together as a couple. Which I can understand…but dang…can I at least get that you are happy for us to get to the half point?

My boyfriend has told me since we got together how he doesn’t wear his feelings on his sleeve..which I have still not gotten used to. I still try and talk mushy and want him to say “I love you” everyday but I know its not going to happen and this was another situation we had a little disagreement about but I am not going to get into that. Its kinda weird for me still but that’s the man I fell in love with I guess…

Anyways, I need to get myself back on track when it comes to my dieting. I kinda fell off for a couple weeks. I got my period (I have REALLY REALLY bad cramps on my period and cant really work out. My doc gave my some scripts so hopefully it helps) and then my knee started killing me because of the hard workouts I was doing.

Even though I have been working out for a couple months now, I feel I am still not getting the results I am aiming for. My Doc has been pushing for me to get on Weight Watchers so I am going to finally take her advice and do it. I have done it in the past and it actually helped. My hesitation towards it was primarily because I don’t want to limit myself and not be hungry. But my biggest problem was, I tend to overeat. So I had to nip in the bud and just do it!

So I will let you guys know how it goes…

No other news than that…didn’t have to cuss out any co-workers lately and my Bi-Polar co-worker has been cool too. Lol